There are lots of little things that you meet along your eatings that just slightly alter the way you know food and the tools you use to think about it. I suppose this is what I was referring to when I talked in my last post about ‘elevating your game’, but it’s not just your ability to create with food that is elevated – it is your inner sense of what it means, your ways of talking about it, of filling out the space it can prospectively occupy in your life.
I’ve never made something for more than 10 people at a time. A project like that, of course, is gratifying, especially when you know all of them and you can see the way it affects them. Last week I moved out of my sort of private sphere of edible influence and into something a little bigger than myself and my friends. So now people might be eating things I’ve made at their desks with their tea or at the table with their oldest friend or maybe if they’re like me they’ve scavenged something special they will share with a very particular person and at the time that it’s shared all of their attention will be on it. That, of course, is a grandiose way to think about it, and I’m also feeding gingerbread to children who are only ‘hungry for biscuits’ and any biscuit will do, and a whole bunch of other slightly less calculated needs-based transactions. But just having the option to feed someone something without the silly formality of having to know them first is, for this moment, a bit of a rush.
Last week I put some things on this shelf, and was a big enough douchebag to then go back and take photos of it:
Things were pretty much all good and no disasters. I hesitated to tell many people about this job until I was sure I would still have it after the first day. There is some part of me which does lack confidence in something I know I can do because I have no ‘credentials’ or place in ‘the industry’ or any of that rubbish. I think there is some element of my perception of this general ‘scene’ built around the cafes in the northern suburbs, which align with my perception of the art scene in Melbourne, which is that it’s primarily a matter of networking and that your craft and passion and integrity is a secondary element. Then again, what the fuck do I know? But there’s also just the part of me that steps inchoate into anything which brings my heart out of its private place in my chest and sits it, uncaged, in some sense of ‘public’. Pride and fear and all that shit.
Thankfully, I’m somewhere where I like the people I am feeding, I like the space in which I’m feeding them, and I like the process of creation. There’s a fair bit of slowmance in it all. I’m making my own apple juice for spelt blueberry muffins and grinding my own clove for pumpkin pinwheel. There’s an appreciation for backyard produce and for imperfect, even downright munted expressions on the faces of bite-a-koalas. Well, it’s permitted, if not appreciated. The kitchen doesn’t feel terribly unlike my own, and that seems affirming.
And so there are some new foodscapes, and therefore some ideas about how to read and navigate them. I’m thinking about roles in urban food chains and about mobile food units (MFUs) and about the recipe as a piece of intellectual property and the matter of accessibility and how many delicious things are easily vegan and liberated from the gluten regime and more and more about the relationships built around food. Like the ones I already have, and how I can bring some of them to Each Peach and make them try something they’ve already had and love it again in a different place. Here’s a slice of pumpkin roll, and the way it can be finished so perfectly for the picture.